How tiring it is, what the world talks about today. I, I, I, and always I. My needs. How I feel. What I’m missing. How to take care of myself. A narrative. It’s easy to succumb to it. It’s easy to justify it. And it’s easy to desire it. Because, of course, it’s about me. […]
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Known
I would like to be known for knowing Him. This has been my greatest desire for years. Although the last few years have been particularly poor in terms of time spent together, because I am a mother of two small children. And yet, despite all my inability, He is there. Close. Revealed in everyday life. […]
Helpless mom
I had to slow down. I stopped reading books to my children before bed. I burned dinner. I stopped weaning Francis. It was hard for me to change his diaper because I had to cope without carrying a fourteen-kilo two-year-old. We didn’t have preschool classes with Joseph once this week. I let the children paint […]
His ways
When we were there for the first time, the road was long and tedious. It was probably the tiredness of that day. Or maybe a bit of the delight of the new place and its details, which stopped me every now and then. We left the car on the red ground, ploughed by deep holes, […]
About children
I had other plans. I wanted to pray for the people at the end of the service. I left the small village church for just a moment. I changed Francis’ diaper, fed the children and left them with Tony. Up to that point the plan had worked. But when I returned to the church, it […]
Place
I wrote about it in a letter at the end of 2023. Today I stand on the threshold of its door and understand more, though nothing yet. A place. The kind we dreamed of. The kind He dreamed of in me. Unprepared by our standards. With uneven walls and numerous holes. With scratched, dirty walls. […]
Goodnesses
Gratitude makes you breathe easier. It’s as if it were expanding your lung capacity. It’s repairing the shortness of your breath, burdened by worry. Gratitude increases your capacity for everything that comes. Gratitude expands your peace. Gratitude for Him expands. Someone recently asked me to recall the little good things God has given me over […]
Song of happiness
Returns. Although I haven’t been anywhere else but here. Because sometimes, or rather, every now and then, you seem to be there, you seem to touch some depth, but it doesn’t satisfy you. As if you were meeting with God not entirely attentively. He is there, you are there. And things happen. And yet there […]
The white
I will always be white. I used to think that after some time, I would become a local. I used to imagine a house without walls or security. A place where anyone could come. I used to imagine myself in the yard, like other Mozambicans, surrounded by people. Today, I live in a house with […]
Walls
I made the decision that I would never love again. It seemed to me the wisest and safest solution at that time. And it didn’t just apply to a man. It applied to every possible commitment. I decided that I would never give my heart away again. I would not open it to anyone or […]